So maybe this is a preemptive attempt at life, but I think that if and when offered, I will take the job that I interviewed for last week. It's not close to my house, but I really think that I will enjoy the time in the car to decompress. I also think a change to scenery and people will be good for me. 


With that I may be letting a few people down after I have pursued another opportunity very hard and I will have to let them down slowly and softy. That will be the hardest part. 


And maybe they won't offer me the job, but I'm hopeful and that is going to be enough for today. 


I'm so tired of the mix of emotion that comes with a longer job search. I've been looking for so long that sometimes I feel inadequate or that I'm a rockstar. I've felt failure and frustration, bitterness and relief. It's rough on the ego. 


With that, I thank all who have supported me so very much. I have the best friends in the world. 

just another day

I had an interview today and I think it went better than the other one. It was for a nurse residency program. I hope I get it. I really do...

I'm so ready to be nurse. Begin my practice and learn so much more than I already know. I will hopefully have a couple more interviews in the next few weeks and I will know for sure what units I have a chance of working on.

So here's to waiting a bit more?

boredom

So it's been month-almost exactly since I took my NCLEX. I've read 3 books, applied for 80+ jobs, shopped for groceries 10 times and I'm bored.

Yes, I love summer and doing fun things with Alli. She started kindergarten in 2 weeks and I'm bored.

I know I have many hobbies and such but without the hustle of life, my hobbies have become mundane. It's not depression-it's boredom. I need a project, a job, something to occupy my mind instead of rotting in front of the television. So here I sit starring at my computer for hours on end hoping for an interview, a spark of hope. I have decided to apply for grad school. I do have an essay to write for that application, but I have no idea where to start. I'll do a google search and probably find my way to the couch in a few minutes.

Wish me luck.

insurance company BS

Problem:

So about a month and a half ago (the same time as graduation and traveling) I was diagnosed with Mono. So I pay my copay at Dr's office, they did a rapid strep and prescribed me some penicillin and ordered a CBC and mono blood test-So I get those, the scrip was $5, no big.

Saturday rolls around an I get a bill for $76, really? what the f happened to $10 labs- I was informed they disappeared Jan 1. and I have a $100 deductible then it's 10% after that. holy moly. So I got to spend almost $100 on a diagnosis I can do nothing about.

Solution:

The insurance company is offering $100 flex dollars to all participants in their healthy people campaign- I wasn't going to do it because 1. I don't get sick often 2. I didn't need the $ until now. I went and got some blood drawn (they test cholesterol and blood sugar-but if they'd just look at my Medical recored they could get both of those) and filled out an online assessment survey on my health.

Within 30 days I should have that flex $ and then I will pay my lab fees.

Way too much work, but I guess it's what needed to be done.

I can't imagine having a chronic illness and dealing with this crap all the time- I feel for those people.

75 and counting

So I have applied for over 75 nursing jobs, and I had 75 questions on my nclex-coinsidence-probably.

The jobs range from IV infusion therapy to ED, from OR to ICU, from PACU to telemetry. So we shall see... I have written probably written 20 different cover letters with my "passion" of blah blah blah. And those managers I've talked to and shared my resume with, say that my resume is beautiful, so why I don't have a job yet, I'm still unsure.

I currently have 3 "considering" at Centura- one of those an interview in a couple weeks. another on hold-whatever that means.

I applied for the new grad program at Memorial-still waiting for the interview fair date

I have only received 7 out of 22 "not selected" from HCA so maybe all others were forwarded to the managers-it's a weird website so I don't really know the status until I receive the 'do not reply' emails of the jobs I didn't get.

That is the job status-it's grim, but hopeful. and yes-i've applied to those jobs that I'm not qualified for in hopes that HR will get tired of seeing my name and forward my app because I'm awesome.

Happy independence day!!

So just an update on the job status- My first interview went well, but I did not get the job. I received my license in the mail, which means I'm official!! I have a couple more interviews, I've applied for 50ish jobs. I'm still hopeful that I will be employed soon.

I am making flatbread with my girls-I'm very much looking forward to that. We may engage on a bike ride, play tennis, swim or otherwise be active!

In other thoughts, what is the appropriate thing to do when other people's children come over to play and leave a mess-it's happened more than once and I'm tired of cleaning and not having others teach their children that it's not okay to leave a mess. suggestions?

well i need to get all my stuff together- have a happy and safe night!

LASIK

So as you know I got LASIK around Christmas time, so it was time again for me to get my eyes checked. One eye was 20/15, the other 20/30-which is so much better than it was before- Yesterday I got PRK on that eye so they would not have to create a flap (had to get that refloated x4 on the other eye-major pain)- afterwards let's just say I was in PAIN. I took a percocet and slept through the night- this morning PAIN again. so I go back for my follow up and ask for some pain drops. These drops are AMAZING!! thank you doc!! My vision is a little hazy still but that is to be expected. So hopefully in a couple week they will both be at 20/15. I would still recommend LASIK, but just warn people that it isn't always a perfect success that first time around. For most it is, but if you are in the lucky few it isn't have patience. I have to say, it's not bad going to see that people at ICON LASIK, they are super nice and some of the Doc's are super hot. (did I really just say that??! lol) and waking up the morning and seeing clearly without fumbling with contacts is so awesome. I do not miss running out of solution and ordering contacts and dealing with the insurance company, copay's and BS. I would highly recommend it. So I get to sleep with eye covers again for a few weeks. There is a funny story that goes with those but I will spare a certain someone the embarrassment. Here's to LASIK, you are awesome.